My love as I received your mother into My presence you had to let go of such a long time of believing and standing. I speak to this wound, this deep wound, this hole within your heart that has affected every area of your life. My love, I reveal what she stepped into and left behind.
Yes, I would have used her to speak to the nations of My mighty and power but I can raise up others. My love her weariness softly melted into vibrancy, she awoke to My light and unhindered presence – she transitioned from your presence into My full glory as an easiness of turning one’s head. How delighted her heart at seeing Me – her One true Love. All of her longings fulfilled in that moment, her reality expanded to all that is. Her heart swelled with a joy and elation that she had only hoped for- oh My love such beauties she beheld and continues to behold. Great is her reward.
My precious one, yes, she was one that knew your heart – I crafted you and her to be together in this life as mother and daughter. You believed for her and she believed for you – what unity that pleased Me greatly. Know that she is kept safe from all harm and heartache – hers is a finished race – be at ease.
We may come to a place of temporary partings with those vessels we love dearly as they move from earth to Heaven. At times the end of another’s race is not fully understood, but we have this hope – Jesus is the author and finisher of our faith. The Lord gave me the following word after my mother went on ahead. For nine years we believed and stood for her healing – we were learning to walk and stand in faith through this long season. During these times God walked with us in each step.
Just before she took her last breaths in her mortal body my husband and I were praying over her for complete healing, for we believed even unto the end. At one moment, her eyes cleared, her breathing normalized, and she looked at us both as if she was about to be raised up and made whole. She mouthed some words and her face shone with such a peace and glory that it overcame her decrepit state she had evidenced for the previous days. We both knew she was telling us she saw her heavenly home and desired to go on to be with the Lord. After this encounter, her body returned to the half-conscious state and her eyes closed. Not long after this event she finished her race.
For months I sought God on what happened. I asked, “Why didn’t she come forth and receive Your full healing in her body?” I had God’s peace but still sought Him on His heart over this matter that left my heart shattered. The Lord shared the word below as He healed my broken heart and crushed spirit. His presence was so weighty all I could do was shake and weep in hope as I received His restoring words and He shared His perspective.
As we face such circumstances, we must know He deals with each of us tenderly and will never forsake us, no matter what the circumstance looks like or whether it is beyond our understanding. Ours is to follow Him, believe all He says, and accept His will for He sees further than we do. He sees what He is protecting, restoring, and bringing forth. Whatever we may face, let us lift up our cries and groans to Him who loves us and offer a prayer of Thanksgiving by faith for those things we don’t yet fully understand.
Prayer of Praise: Give thanks to the Lord, for His love endures forever. He has heard my cry and answered my prayer and will surely turn and leave a blessing.
“Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his faithful servants. Truly I am your servant, Lord; I serve you just as my mother did; you have freed me from my chains. I will sacrifice a thank offering to you and call on the name of the Lord.”
“Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, ‘Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,’ even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand – when I awake, I am still with you.”
II Corinthians 5:1-8
“For we know that if our earthly house of this tabernacle were dissolved, we have a building of God, an house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed upon with our house which is from heaven: If so be that being clothed we shall not be found naked. For we that are in this tabernacle do groan, being burdened: not for that we would be unclothed, but clothed upon, that mortality might be swallowed up of life. Now he that hath wrought us for the selfsame thing is God, who also hath given unto us the earnest of the Spirit. Therefore we are always confident, knowing that, whilst we are at home in the body, we are absent from the Lord: (For we walk by faith, not by sight:). We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord.”
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Hymn: I Have Somebody With Me
By: V.B. Ellis
Tho others would be lonely when all their friends are gone,
My Lord is ever standing by my side;
A heavy load upon me and yet I’m pressing on,
Because I have found a Savior, Friend and Guide.
In bitter toil and sorrow and heartaches not a few
A consolation sweet is mine each day;
I’m going home tomorrow hen life on earth is through,
I have somebody with me all the way.
Some folks have lots of pity they say I’m sad and lone,
But I don’t need their sympathy at all;
For in that golden city my Lord’s prepared a home
I’m leaving when I hear the final call.
O yes I have somebody with me to share the heavy load.
I feel His presence near me everyday;
And tho trouble overtakes me along life’s road
I have somebody with me all the way.