After a long season of cave dwelling, the Lord is bringing me out. Into what? I know not, but I know You are moving me into something new. Thank you. With all of my efforts and strivings, I could not make one thing change. But when it’s Your season and timing, we cannot stay where we were.
In the transition from one season to another, there is often expended much effort. I perceive this transition, for how much You have pressed upon my heart, changed my perceptions about justice and fairness, and made none of the opinions of mankind matter. All that matters is that You are pleased, that the One who created me is delighted at what I spend my time on and give strength and focus.
But I say to Thee, “Oh My God, thank you for hearing my prayer. Those who were not what they ought to have been derailed me, sabotaged, and forsook. But You saw me and the way I took. You knew my motivations were to build up. When I was misaligned and tossed away, as though I mattered not, You restored to me the value you placed on me. When they exhausted me from their lies and constant entrapments, you released my feet from the snare.When I prayed, ‘Lord, forgive them and hold not what they’ve done to me against them.’ You gave me peace and released me from the hold of forgiveness and bitterness.
At times, I thought You had forsaken me. How crushed I was to think that Thee, who at one time felt closer than a brother, had left me alone with hopes dashed. When I breathed a sigh of deep sorrow and thought, “I wish none of this had happened to me. I would rather that none of this occurred so I did not have this wound.” You responded in a still, small voice, “I would that it had not happened to you either.” This response rushed in a wave of peace beyond all understanding. At that moment I knew You, the Creator of the Universe, did not desire to give your children hard places to dwell. You desire to give us good gifts and to bless, no matter what the enemy did or continues to do through willing and deceived mankind. I saw that you did not leave or forsake me. We do not control other’s choices, we only control our own and how we respond to others. In these choices we honor and glorify Thee, bearing Thy name.
We all have a free will choice, some choose to spread evil and walk in darkness, but others choose Thee – walk in Your light. I trust Thee, Oh God. Because of Your goodness I say, ‘If you chose to slay me and not make a way out, yet will I trust You.’ You are not evil, all the darkness of this world is not of Thee. You give us choice to love or hate, to align with the enemy or to align with Thee. I choose Thee.
What would You have me do with my life? Beloved, whatever You please. Be it done unto Me accordingly to Your will. By faith and assurance of Your goodness, oh Lord, I know the end result will be exactly what I need. Be it done unto me accordingly to Thy Will. Not my will, but Yours be done. Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy Name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day, our daily bread. Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sinned against us. Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For Yours is the Kindgom, and the Power, and the Glory forever. Amen.
Oh Lord, I know You are moving me to a new place, a new walk, a new way. I love when You do this. All I need is to know, ‘Thee sees me.’ Yes, “Thee” a term of intimate adoration, my Beloved. You guide and lead me, I guard my heart so that the enemy cannot use this transition to twist and turn into a place of bitterness but of peace, knowing that You order my steps and my steps are secure.
Whether I’m disappointed or excited about the outcome, knowing it is Your will is the reward. My emotions will not change my course. Whom have I in Heaven, but Thee, and being on earth I desire none but Thee. Though my strength and my heart my fail, You are the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
Your wound was to please everyone around you, and not disappoint. My love, you were created to delight Me.
What the enemy meant for your destruction, I turn into good. I can use anything as refinement, as sanctification, as drawing unto Me. Fret not, be thou not dismayed. Your times are in My hands.
Not one moment has escaped My notice. My timing is My own, do not keep score. Do not keep score.
I am teaching you to sing in a new key. To lean not on your own strength. Lean into this new sound, sing not the old notes. I put a new song in your mouth. How sweet will be the taste of it. It will be as sweet of honey. You may miss a note, but keep your mouth open wide and My new notes flow effortlessly and be bold to sing this new sound I give you.
You cannot not rely on understanding of chords of how things fit together in the past, for is a new way of understanding Me. I bring you into deeper understanding of My character.
This new way singing will not tiresome and exhausting, you will flow with My strength and be satisfied in My purpose.
How much life your willingness to submit to My way will give to others. They long for this sound. They long for this refreshment. Speak thus and I will give you what to say.
I will put words into your moth, I give you wisdom from heaven. I give you insight into the new way you are walking. You will not need to figure out and strain as you did in the past, you will know, you will know this gifting comes from Me.
You will be settled knowing I see thee and sing over you, My love.
Psalm 73:1-28
Surely God is good to Israel, to those who are pure in heart.
But as for me, my feet had almost slipped; I had nearly lost my foothold. For I envied the arrogant when I saw the prosperity of the wicked. They have no struggles; their bodies are healthy and strong. They are free from common human burdens; they are not plagued by human ills. Therefore pride is their necklace; they clothe themselves with violence. From their callous hearts comes iniquity; their evil imaginations have no limits. They scoff, and speak with malice; with arrogance they threaten oppression. Their mouths lay claim to heaven, and their tongues take possession of the earth. Therefore their people turn to them and drink up waters in abundance. They say, “How would God know? Does the Most High know anything?” This is what the wicked are like – always free of care, they go on amassing wealth.
Surely in vain I have kept my heart pure and have washed my hands in innocence. All day long I have been afflicted, and every morning brings new punishments. If I had spoken out like that, I would have betrayed your children. When I tried to understand all this, it troubled me deeply till I entered the sanctuary of God; then I understood their final destiny. Surely you place them on slippery ground; you cast them down to ruin. How suddenly are they destroyed, completely swept away by terrors! They are like a dream when one awakes; when you arise, Lord, you will despise them as fantasies.
When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you. Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Those who are far from you will perish; you destroy all who are unfaithful to you. But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds.