beautiful white bunny with black ears sitting in the morning grass next to a bin of fresh dew covered hay.

I Am Near You

Prayer: I feel so far from You, so disconnected from my purpose in life. That is not the truth, even though I feel it. Even though it seems real.

Proclamation: The truth is, You – Oh God – are my life, my breath, my strength. Without You I can do nothing. Without You there is no good thing. You are my very great reward. The tormenting lie that sounds so loud I am distracted says, “You are far from God.” But I counter every lie of the enemy, even the look of My circumstances with Your truth – for this is my weapon, for I wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against rulers of this dark world who is the accuser of the brethren.

I fear not for You have overcome the world and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. There has no temptation that can overcome me, but You have made a way of escape. I will not give into the temptation to be sad, despondent, feel like my life is futile, or be overwhelmed at my surroundings for You are with me, Your rod and staff comfort me. You have prepared a table before me in the presence of my enemies, You anoint my head with oil, my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

By faith, I proclaim these words. By faith I praise you. Why are you downcast, oh my soul, put your hope in God for I will yet praise Him  – my Savior and my God.

Psalm 139:1-24 (ESV)

“O Lord, you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.
Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O Lord, you know it altogether. You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it. Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me.

If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,”  even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you. For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand. I awake, and I am still with you. Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God!
O men of blood, depart from me! They speak against you with malicious intent; your enemies take your name in vain. Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord? And do I not loathe those who rise up against you? I hate them with complete hatred; I count them my enemies. Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!”